Friday, July 31, 2009

Life Goes On

Picture is when Mugsey was like 4 months old. If you are just reading this post you have to read the two previous to understand why I'm blogging about him, he passed away yesterday.

Ok, Dispatch is being so nice to me because he thinks I am sad he actually stood on his back legs and let me pick burrs off of his chest. This is not remarkable because he stood up so long he can probably walk 20 feet on his back legs, it's he LET me pick burrs. I am much better today. The waterworks have only caught me good twice and Dispatch cuddled with me the second time. He's not a face licker but if he was he would have licked my face.

I pulled weeds in the flower bed after I watered thoroughly and it was cool, you guessed it I found something that reminded me of Mugsey. (Besides the lighting and irrigation he ate of course) I had a few pieces of black plastic fencing that I put on the front flowerbed by the sidewalk. I know you are saying ewwwww, but it was really OK when covered with plants. Mugsey didn't like it there. I have LOTS of white plastic fence in the backyard which isn't a backyard and he never bothered it. Like 8 times as much as the few measly pieces in front of the house. Anyway I found the black plastic fencing, I'd forgotten I had it as I had laid it down behind the plants to hide it from him, I kept putting it back in flowerbed as fencing, I scolded him, told him no but there was something about it he couldn't resist so I finally gave up after two years. I would say we will have a puppy soon but I would feel so disloyal. It took 4 years for my husband to replace his last dog Bandit the Australian Shepherd who tried to make a bomb by the back door (he ate an oil container and part of a fertilizer sack, voila explosives) and ate the batteries out of solar lights. Unless you count Dispatch of course. We talked about puppies and dogs and breeds of dogs, we did know a Labrador Retriever who was mean and bit children, she was also left alone quite a bit, Mugsey would maybe injure a child by knocking them down and then licking them but NEVER biting them, he loved kids. Don't know if it's the raising that does it or the particular dog or a combination, sort of the nature vs. nurture debate all over again.

We've given up saying Mugsey was just a dog, after all we are getting his ashes to scatter over the farm. Waterworks on, Dispatch wants on my lap. Mugsey was a wimp who hid behind Dispatch most of the time but once he woofed @ a strange man in the middle of the night. After that I had no doubt he would @ least act like he was protecting me. That was just the end of May when he did that. As my husband keeps saying, he was just getting to be the dog we wanted and not a puppy. He amazed people by responding to finger snaps and hand signals, I don't consciously train them like this and it's not for big things but just if they need to pay attention to me or do something. People commented how well they behaved on leashes down in Louisiana, I was VERY proud of them then as they had just been on leashes a few times in the last two years. I could even walk without them getting tangled up most of the time.

The schnauzer from across the road came over tonight, she hasn't been over for months and months, I wonder if she is looking for Mugsey? They didn't play anymore but would each sit on their side of the road. I called the neighbor who owns the schnauzer to see if they knew anything or had seen anything when Mugsey got hit but they didn't.

Someone else is looking for Mugsey too.

And looking....

They had a system set up, Mugsey would come look in the window and Dispatch would whine till I let him in. I didn't think Dispatch was missing him till I noticed he was @ the window unless he was by me. I didn't get a picture of it but Fema my cousins dog who almost lives here was looking in the window or the glass door when I had the other one open. She's waiting too.


But life goes on. Stupid dog. Can you understand why I say stupid dog. I wasn't going to get attached, I HAD my dog. I'm really glad I walked Mugsey around the RV park so much in Louisiana though, I keep thinking about the time he headed for the woods when I had him off the leash in LA just like he was @ home and had heard something calling for him or maybe home was just past that fence and tree? It was weird. He came back but he never left me like that, he was always trailing or looking and making sure where I was. I know it's not true but it's almost like he heard the rainbow bridge calling him?

Back to earth and practical matters. A grey streak came from the glass table outside this morning. It was on the roof last night and I tried to get him down but he hissed @ me, there is a tree branch that he got ON the roof with and I said if he got on he can get off or he will get hungry and come to me, my husband told me to be careful getting on the ladder but I informed him I'd already cleaned the gutters, it was sweet of him though. I think the cat is meanies kitten but I have no idea where she's been keeping him. Evidently she's been feeding him well, he's fat with thick thick fur. He is also the spitting image of my cousins cat Nathan, hmmmmmmmm. He's back in the tree tonight, won't come down but he knows where the cat food is and I will tame him more tomorrow with some canned food. He's not yellow or a dog but it's funny how he just appeared yesterday after I got home. And Life Goes On.

13 comments:

MzzLily said...

Maybe Mugsey sent this kitty...

There will be reminders everywhere you look. But eventually those reminders will bring a smile.

AL said...

When Scott passed away, nobody knew about it, except the family, the children who used to play with Scott was wondering why they don't get to see Scott at all, even the neighbors who are used to see Scott roaming around the garden all day.

I agree with MsLilly, when Scott left the earth there was this stray cat who keeps on coming even if Coffee is very mad at the cat. Someone told me that Scott sent it to me, but I have Oreo now.

AL

chicamom85 said...

Those are nice memories and I am glad that Dispatch is there to comfort you.

Anne

SquirrelQueen said...

The reminders will be there for a long time but it gets to a point where it's OK and brings more memories than tears.

Dispatch probably is looking for Mugsey, they get more attached to each other than we realize. My cats Tasha and Cindi really didn't like each other but when Tasha died Cindi search everywhere for her.

TC said...

MzzLily, maybe Mugsey did send the kitten, but he would want to be here to chase it! LOL Thankyou, some of the reminders are bringing a pang and then a smile even now. Mostly I wish I'd let him destroy more. :-)

TC said...

AL, thanks for stopping by, I don't know if the kitten was sent by Mugsey or not but he mewed @ me till I fed him this morning. Can't catch him but I couldn't call my husband till I'd gotten the cats to be quiet!! I use mobile outside because of reception.

TC said...

Thanks for stopping by Anne, I hope I don't bore everyone with memories, I plan on doing a real memorial post someday soon.

TC said...

Judy, I do think Dispatch is like weirded out by no Mugsey. He probably doesn't even remember life before we got Mugsey and now his playmate and sometimes competitor for attention is GONE.

I let him sniff Mugseys collar a couple times, I dont' know if it smelled like Mugsey injured or the vet clinic but both times Dispatch was like Whoa, what's up with THAT. I think Dis thinks Mugsey sent the kitten to him so he would have something else to chase, Dis only chases gray cats. Not black, not yellow, just gray.

hostagirl said...

Yes, I too, believe other animals get very attached to each other and will morn just as we so. I am so glad you have such great photos of Mugsey for you forever memories in your heart. And that cat is a wonderful "gift" and momentary distraction for both you and Dispatch. I pray your pain begins to leason for you soon and your memories can live forever. Gail and Misaya

TC said...

Gail and Misaya I am MUCH better today, found out my brothers best friend is dying today while on the phone finding out funeral arrangements for my husbands best friends father? NOT a good week by any means. But I cried for humans today which I suppose is an improvement?

TC said...

Gail, I'm not sure if Dispatch is better, I'm trying to get him half way crate trained before/if we get another dog, just safer and easier in the car if nothing else. He is actually obeying and going to crate. I think he thinks mama has fallen off of deep end.

Jan Mader said...

I was just at Percy's blog and read your comment. I am so sorry to hear of your loss. I know how painful it is for you.

I'm a children's author and writing to you from that blog. I have a blog for animal lovers too
http://animaltalk4u.blogspot.com/

Please come visit. We lost one of our three dogs several months ago. The grieving isn't easy for animals or people.

TC said...

Jan thanks so much for stopping by. It is getting easier even now but it had to or I wouldn't be able to function.
On my way to your blog.....